the beginning of the end

What if the one you love
is the one that hurts you?
When you cry and want to curl up
in someones arms
The arms that now are weapons against you
Instead of loving care

When the days that follow
are filled with explaining
With shame and having to defend
the very pain you're in
When you have to justify
the love that you're still feeling

When you know that what you want
isn't what you need
How do you climb up
When the ground beneath your feet
isn't certain anymore?

Guild wraps it's icy fingers 'round your heart
Did you allow this just by staying?
Are you creating a pathway in the dark
from wich no-one can return?

Look over your shoulder
turn around
leave this place behind you
step back into the bright times

But isn't hope just a slow death?
It's bound to take it's time
but in the end it might be
inevitable